Pastor, Western Presbyterian Church
Washington, D.C.
November 29, 2009
Text: Psalm 25:1-10
Two summers ago, I was asked to write some articles for a new biblical commentary on the lectionary texts. My assignment involved three selections from the Psalms. I found the task challenging because I usually don’t preach on the Psalms.
As I realized I don’t preach on Psalms, I also realized it is kind of odd because the Psalms play such a powerful role in my personal spiritual life. Twenty five years ago, when I went through a divorce, I discovered the Psalms for the first time, in a meaningful way, and read them on a daily basis. In those pain-filled days, the forlorn, bereft tone of some of the Psalms perfectly fit my mood.
As sorrowful as the Psalmists can be, they always express a profound understanding that their lives are in the hands of all-powerful and wise God. In times of crisis, there is something powerfully reassuring about such a knowledge. The Psalmists question but never doubt God exists. As followers of God, they freely and boldly express their anger, hurt, and confusion about what is happening in their lives; their search for meaning leading them deeper into the mystery of God’s love for the world.
At age 62, I find it a bit strange that I have never felt abandoned by God; never questioned God’s existence. I’m not sure why. But God’s presence is a bedrock fact of my spiritual life. With the Psalmist’s, I have cried out to God, “Why? What is going on here? I feel lost. I don’t know where I am going. Show me a way.” But as emotionally dead as I have felt a few times, I have never felt as though God is dead.
So the Psalmists, no matter how depressed or oppressed, were always filled with hope. After all, the very act of crying out to God is a statement of our hope in God. If we aren’t hopeful that God can help us, why would we bother to cry out?
Gratefully, my grief-filled days of 25 years ago have been replaced by a life filled with joy. Nonetheless, I continue to read the Psalms because of the spiritual kinship I feel with the authors of the Psalms and the integrity of their spiritual quest for God. So the lectionary assigned Psalm caught my eye this week.
The Psalmist takes us into the realm of shame, crying out, “O my God, in you I trust; do not let me be put to shame; do not let my enemies exult over me.” It is such a basic human request: “Do not let me be put to shame.”
According to one dictionary’s definition, shame is “the painful feeling arising from the consciousness of something dishonorable, improper, or ridiculous done by oneself or another.” Whether the cause of our shame is done by us or to us, the shame belongs to us and us alone. It is an intensely personal possession. Most of us hide our shame somewhere deep in our consciousness, never letting it see the light of day. It is as if to expose our shame would be shameful in and of itself.
And therein lies the problem. Hiding, burying, ignoring our shame gives shame its power. Pushed deep down inside us, shame becomes a spiritual cancer, slowly eating away at and destroying our ability to embrace who we truly are: loved, invaluable children of God.
Earlier this fall, I organized a small event that turned out to be among the best pastoral care classes I have ever attended. I asked two very skilled pastoral counselors, Rose Wayland and Western’s own Gary McMichael, to meet with a group of pastors and talk about how we pastors can most effectively respond to people going through the enormous stress flowing from our current economic crisis. It was an amazing two hours, in part, because of Gary’s identification of shame as a crucial response to personal problems—in particular, economic problems.
Gary explained that too often when we lose our job, can’t find a job or are stuck in a job, we blame ourselves. Even though the economy is in the tank, unemployment is at 10%, entire segments of the economy have virtually disappeared, we blame ourselves! As we blame ourselves, we begin to feel shame. “Why can’t I get a job? What is wrong with me?” we wonder. As we blame and shame ourselves, our sense of self-worth drains from the core of our being. Relentless and debilitating, our shame is real but totally inappropriate.
As I thought about what Gary taught us, I reflected on how inappropriate, unnecessary shame is generated by many different external forces, not just economic forces. Many individuals in the LGBT community have felt shame simply for being who God created them to be. Living in a society where heterosexuality was viewed and taught to be the norm, these individuals had to deal with their sexuality being labeled as deviant. To the extent they accepted that judgement, even slightly, the resulting sense of shame had a corrosive effect on their lives.
Many individuals in minority racial-ethnic groups have felt shame simply because they didn’t match the prevailing societal model of what a person was supposed to look and sound like. I had a friend whose father was an Italian immigrant back at the beginning of the 20th century. He said his father was permanently damaged by his belief that there was something wrong with him because he was Italian and an immigrant—a belief he absorbed from a WASP-dominated culture.
At some level, the Psalmist understood the harmful potential of shame on our lives, crying out to God, “do not let me be put to shame.” The Psalmist knew that to descend into the realm of shame would be far worse than whatever caused the shame itself. And so the Psalmist asked God to spare him such a fate.
Clearly, there are some things of which we should be genuinely ashamed—but they aren’t our employment status, gender, sexuality, race or ethnicity. Rather, appropriate shame would be caused by us harming others or ourselves with actions or words. Not to feel shame when we hurt others is a problem in and of itself. A label none of us desires is “shameless.”
Bernard Madoff should be ashamed. Our nation should be ashamed of our practice of slavery and segregation. The church should be ashamed of its history of sexism, homophobia and cultural imperialism.
Indeed, an appropriate sense of shame can lead us to God, in search of forgiveness and cleansing we cannot find anywhere else. Feeling shame, we seek relief; relief we find in the arms of the loving God revealed by Jesus.
Whether our shame be appropriate or inappropriate, we need something external to us to heal this most internal of phenomena. Filled with appropriate shame, we can’t forgive ourselves in ways we need. Filled with inappropriate shame created by stuff society lays on us, we can’t affirm ourselves in ways we need. In both cases, we need God.
As we study Jesus’ life and ministry, we see a pattern: people came to Jesus for something. People wanted a new life. Some of these folks were plagued with health issues—mental or physical. Some were tired of leading lives with no direction or purpose. And more than a few who sought out Jesus were carrying around crippling shame—tax collectors working for an oppressive, hated government, a woman with a bad reputation, a Pharisee who used his power to his own advantage, so many different types of people all struggling with the same phenomenon—shame. Just as the Psalmist turned to God, they turned to Jesus in hopes that they could be relieved of their shame.
When famous people in this town do infamous things, they almost always surround themselves with some type of spiritual entourage—pastors, rabbis or someone else identified with God. When they do so, they are routinely mocked as spinning the public, being disingenuous. Maybe they are. But maybe they aren’t. Maybe the only One to whom they can turn is God. Caught in a shame-filled web of their own making, they realize only God has the power to release them.
In God’s redemptive presence, we encounter a Parental Power who loves and values us, especially when no one else does, especially when we don’t love and value ourselves. God’s grace-filled love can totally illuminate the dark place shame creates for itself in a corner of our souls. If we allow that to happen, that is the end of shame. For shame cannot stand the light of day, let alone the light of God’s love.
Given the role shame plays in our lives and the history of the world, both individually and corporately, we need to deal with it in better ways. How?
First, what not to do. When someone does something sinful, we cannot pile on ever greater doses of shame. If a person feels shame for shameful deeds, good. This is a healthy response. However, as Christians, we cannot pummel them with shame; otherwise shame will define who they are. We need to help them find God’s vision of who they are.
This isn’t easy because we will get criticized for helping such individuals reclaim their lives. Disgraced people are lepers. Everyone who gets near them gets tainted by their disgrace. It has happened to me more than a few times when I have befriended people who did something terribly wrong. But we really have no choice but to extend God’s love to these folks, no matter the potential cost to our own reputations. As Jesus said, we are not here to lift up the righteous. We are here to lift up those who have fallen on life’s roads.
Second, what to do. We need to listen carefully to the voices of people who tell us they are being covered with shame for no good reason. Courageous voices in the LGBT community have been saying forever that shame is being dumped on them for normal behavior; in some cultures, we see women shamed for something as natural as their menstrual cycle; we see people with disabilities shamed because they have a physical challenge; immigrants shamed for not speaking the majority language.
It is really outrageous. It is we, not they, who should feel shame. We need to stop telling people what they should be and listen to people describe who they are. When we do, we will gain a new appreciation for the breadth and depth of the diversity of God’s good creation.
In the season of Advent, we focus on being prepared for the coming of God into our lives. In Luke this morning, we heard Jesus say, “Be on guard so that your hearts are not weighed down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of this life, and that day catch you unexpectedly, like a trap.” Too often, in our efforts to heed Jesus’ advice, we focus on our behavior—things we do that are contrary to the Way a Christian is called to live. We think about how we need to be more open and less closed to others, more generous and less selfish, more forgiving and less harsh.
However, to be prepared for God’s coming, we can’t focus solely on behaviors. We have to work on what motivates our behavior. We become closed to others when we are motivated by fear. We are selfish when we don’t trust that God will take care of us like the lilies of the field and birds of the air. We are harshly judgmental when we fail to allow God to be the Ultimate Judge of what is right and wrong.
In preparing for God, the Psalmist reminds us that we need to deal with the motivation of shame. Filled with shame, our behavior becomes distorted and twisted as surely as the sun rises and sets. Until we allow God to remove the shame, it will cripple us.
So as we once again begin our sacred, beautiful pilgrimage to Bethlehem, let us bring our shame into the light of God’s love where it can be transformed from feelings of disgrace into the experience of being graced by God. If we do so, we will arrive at the manger as new creations, prepared to experience an innocence that casts a whole, new light on the world.
Let us Pray: Gracious God, you are good to us in so many ways. Thank you. Help us to understand the power of this feeling called shame. As we put our trust in you, lift from us its hold. May we, in turn, not cast shame on others. All this we ask in the name of our Liberator and Redeemer, Jesus the Christ. Amen.